Meditation at 1010

Sundays are restorative days for me. It's the only true day that I am able to sleep in and restore myself physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. Any other day, I'm always highly active and on the go. And I don't mean that just physically. I also mean that mentally. And it's the mental that wears us down more than anything. At least, it's that way for me. We have a million and one tasks, errands, and activities that we have to get through during our weekdays, and it's almost like our brains puts us on autopilot in order to help us get through our weekdays.  And even though we are on autopilot, we still have a number of impending new thoughts and feelings that surface.

For someone who is an over-thinker like myself, I find it very important to give myself methods to decompress and reflect on my thoughts, feelings, and actions. It is a good way for me to determine if a thought is something that I need to analyze further or if an insecurity that I been feeling lately is something I need to work through personally or involve others. I can also reflect on if an idea of a business venture is something I should explore, etc.... Sundays are my days of meditation and reflection. It's the day that I allow my mind to rest. It's the day that I try to regroup with myself so that I can get re-focused on my resolution and goals. It's the day that I like to restore my mind when needed. My morning typically consist of me allowing myself to sleep in. If I don't sleep in no other day, I'm sleeping in on Sunday. That's a true commitment for me. I am usually on the go throughout the week. Saturdays are usually a coin toss for me, but since my son is in sports, I don't count on sleeping too much on Saturdays. But Sundays! Sundays are peaceful. 

Think about how many actual thoughts that we have in a day, let alone an entire week. There has to be a healthy way to sort through those thoughts, right? But how do we do that? Well, the answer is yes, of course we should be able to find a way to sort and reflect our thoughts when we need to. But the caveat to this is that you have to find a healthy method that works for YOU. And what's even more important to note people, is that when you're in a relationship/partnership, THE WAY YOU MAY NEED TO DECOMPRESS AND RELIEVE STRESS MAY NOT BE THE SAME FOR YOUR PARTNER. But that's another discussion topic on its own that we'll delve into one day. 

Well, this past Sunday was a really good Sunday for me. Actually, the past week was an overall good week. But I've had this minimal stress that has been slowly building because there has been a lot of change happening for me. My life is going to into a new chapter that I am both excited, and yet, anxious for. Internally, it feels almost as if there's a shift that's occurring. The shift almost feels like a call to action, like what I'm experiencing is a defining moment. In the spiritual world, what I am experiencing is what is known as an ascension. For those who do not know what ascension is, it can be defined as, "a process of personal growth and transformation, in which an individual elevates their consciousness and transcends the limitations of the physical world, ultimately moving towards spiritual enlightenment and unity with the divine or a higher power."  

I believe that in order for us to get closer to God, we must get closer to ourselves. The closer that we are able to get to having a peace of mind, the closer we get to God. And yes, I've spelled it as "peace" on purpose, for we are most at war with ourselves more than anyone else on this planet. Our mental capacity has the capacity to dictate how bad we suffer in a physical capacity. So, I believe that to an individual level, our ultimate goal is to find peace. For when we find peace, we find God. In order to find peace, you have to seek our true happiness. In order to seek true happiness, you simply have to do what makes you happy. 

Having these beliefs has caused me to dedicate this more recent chapter of my life to discover what truly makes me happy. I've re-discovered hobbies and have gathered new hobbies along this recent  journey. A new year's resolution that I have given to myself is to do at least one thing that makes me happy, everyday. I actually took the time to make a list of things that I truly enjoy, so that way, if I a having a rough day and I realize that I haven't done anything from the list, then I can still select something on that list for me to do. But there's also a flip side to that, in which maybe I'm having a rough day even though I already did something on that list. Well, I can handle this in two ways: 1) I can select a second item to do on the list, or 2) I can reflect on what I did initially and I can remind myself that I got to do something that I enjoyed, and I can switch my train of thinking to have more of a gratitude effect. Now, neither option would be a bad option, but the second option allows me to train my way of thinking to a more positive and forward-thinking approach. I believe that if focus simply on doing the things that I love, I will get closer to the peace that I seek. I'm learning that as I take the time to actually enjoy my life, my life path becomes more aligned with what I feel is my purpose. 

Sunday was a day of confirmation for me. When I first got up, I did a prayer/meditation, and the revelation I gathered from it was that encouraged to keep focusing on the mission that I've set out for myself. I can honestly say that I've been more happy with myself in the past six months than I've been in the last few years. And I know a major part of that has stemmed from me switching my way of thinking. 

After I finished my prayer/meditation, I had decided to journal. And when I first sat down and opened my journal, I noticed the time was 10:10 (I always write the date and time at the top of my journal page). Now, the number 1010 has spiritual meaning as well, and starting my journal at this time was another confirmation for me. And at that moment,  all I could do is rejoice. I am thankful for the path that I've set for myself, and I am most thankful for my spirituality. As I've grown more spiritual, I've grown closer to God. And that is ascension. 

Below is the journal that I logged that day: 

Thank you for reading.